You CAN’T Break Me

#EndRevengePorn -- I've been crying a lot today. In general I haven't been doing good recently, but I don't actually want to write about that right now. I don't really need to write anything, because all I want to say can be conveyed through powerful, amazing videos. Briefly; I have found a beautiful youtube channel …

You Are a Hero For Living

you are a hero for living from that moment to this one you never need to apologise for how you chose to survive Yes, it's been such a long time since I wrote on here, and that's for no particular reason. Not because things have been too bad to say, nor because they are good enough …

Don’t you know it feels good to be alive

Today has been a good day. An amazing day, really. But I will start by briefly outlining the last week or so, which have not been so good at all. I haven't been eating properly at all, which in turn gives me less energy and keeps me downtrodden. Yesterday I broke down, but not as …

Struggles and Fighting

I have been struggling this past month, too. Not just with eating, but with everything. Last Thursday I cut my arms with a knife and took so much medication, mine and ibuprofen... I just wanted the pain to go away. But I gave fate a chance. I called Childline, and they called an ambulance. The …

The Flower that Blooms in the Adversity

...is the most beautiful of all -Disney's Mulan I've been struggling pretty bad recently, and have relapsed in a few things. The main three issues that I've had a hard time with are: Depression - I have self-harmed a few times in hate of myself; Anxiety/PTSD - I have had to sleep on the floor …

Recovery: On Top Of The World (Good Days)

It's been a couple of good days, and I'm going to record them in this short post here just before dinner time. Wednesday, after piano lesson, I slept over at my Grandma's for my weekly respite, and we had a good Thursday. Now, yesterday, I walked Sally (greyhound) in the morning a different way to …

A Little Bit of After Easter Blues

I'm going to say 'blues' rather than darker explanations, because I don't believe it needs a darker word. I will use the word 'blues' rather than something along the lines of relapse and dark thoughts, because I have been trying hard recently, and things have been coming along a little, at least. The reason for …

PTSD Flashbacks

This is just going to be a short post, but I want to write it. Last night, the car had broken down, the AA service was coming to fix it. And then did, nothing wrong with that. They came and towed it away. Fine, right? Wrong. For me, at least. I knew and I knew …

Hogwarts will Always be There to Welcome you Home

Last Thursday we went away, headed to Watford, London. We stayed the night in a very well serviced Premier Inn hotel, which was lovely, and in the morning got up, had breakfast, and went off to Harry Potter Studios, where they filmed the movies, with all the real props and sets, and it was a …

It was Not, After All, so Easy to Die

I shall write this first bit like a story, because it is less painful to do so. Sunday night, 11th January, my life changed. It had been a normal day, or so much as it can be with me. That evening, Dan and I were home alone, and there was a knock at the door. …